I believe that every single event in life happens as an opportunity to choose love over fear.” – Oprah Winfrey
Much has been said about blogs being the edited version of ourselves, but I’ve found that those blogs don’t hold my interest for very long. Sometimes you just want to know where someone is really at.
Those ‘perfect’ blogs make me wonder. If you turn the camera slightly to the left, is there a pile of laundry on the floor? Do books clutter their desk or dishes fill their sink? Is their life really a bright sparkle of creative joy complete with glitter and new crayons or do they sometimes eat tubs of ice cream or sit in the shower and cry? Can they always find a clean tea towel when they need one?
Me? I’m in a quiet headspace right now. I am experiencing a run of strange luck and I am having trouble keeping focused on what I need to do. So far 2010 has kicked my ass a little bit. My heart is tired and let me tell you folks, there are definitely dishes in my sink. So that’s where my heart is now. What about you? Where is your heart at tonight?
my house is clean and even smells good because i spent all day sunday elbows greased but it is small consolation because i am tired. so very tired. work is kicking my butt but this heavy heart will pass and i will feel light again.
i like it when my life is sunbeams and creative glitter, it happens and its always such a rush of happiness but there is always the other side where everything just feels hard. today is one of those days. hoping for more glitter.
love to you, xo
if you took a photo of my place right now it definitely wouldn’t be pretty. the kitchen is a mess, the bed hasn’t been made properly for a week and i’m sitting here in my pyjamas.
part of my heart is with you honey; other parts are scattered across the globe and a tiny piece is here, aching because i still don’t know what the answers are.
For about half an hour, on Saturday, I had the PR house. Since then – as usual – it’s gone downhill! I guess 30 minutes at the weekend will have to do for now.
I’m beginning to feel the way I usually feel around March – I’m a mad March Hare and SAD has me totally manic for March/April. This isn’t a good thing. If I feel this way NOW…spring could be scarey. Watch out.
I don’t know what the answers are for you either but I believe in you soooo much. I’ve felt the joy you carry in you and it will overcome. It will. Maybe, seeing as it’s still only midwinter, this is just a downtime. A rest. A time to just snuggle up and wait. You have your whole life and a HUGE soul. There’s time. Infinity and beyond. Love you. See you soon. xx
~i keep walking in circles because i have created enormous piles throughout my home and am now having a hard time focusing on getting anything done…as for dishes…they are always in the sink…i’ve learned and accepted i will only do them once a day and if it bothers any one else in the home or those who visit then they can take the initiative to do them…more to life then waisting all day cleaning…there have been all to many days where tears have been shed in the shower or garage! i hope your heart feels a bit lighter in these days to come…brightest blessings~
My kitchen is a complete shambles at the moment. I just spent 45 minutes looking for the pastry bag for decorating cupcakes and took the entire kitchen apart. Then I gave up and used a ziploc baggie. Do you know how long it took to decorate the cupcakes once I let go of finding the pastry bag? 6 minutes. There’s a lesson there, I’m sure.
And the cat has to go to the vet, and we have guests coming over and, and, and…
And thank goodness I gave myself a break and sat down with a glass of water to read your post. Because your honesty was just what I needed at this moment. I love your marvelous magic here, Meg. And I’m sending sparkly thoughts your way today. Be kind to yourself in these days.
Oh, I am sure those “perfect” people have plenty of laundry and dirty dishes piling up in the background. But I am with you, I much prefer the “real” blogs 🙂 Like Darlene, work is kicking my butt, too. Don’t know what it is with this January, it’s been a very strange and challenging month in this respect and I still haven’t figured out what the universe is trying to tell me?
Sending you a big hug, you have a lovely heart xo
Totally hear you on this – I’m in a contemplative state at the moment too, recovering from a chest infection, surrounded by laundry, dishes and things that need dusting! I really do understand why animals hibernate for winter! Just know that this intertia will pass, spring will be here soon. Sending you big hugs x
Heehee Megg… your post gave me a good giggle!
This evening I sit here in my togs ( it’s summer here in oz) after having paid to go to the local pool… my 14 YO lad wanted some diving practise and I thought it would be a good time for me to get some much needed exercise in ( you know, on the weightloss trail again, no junk food in the house etc). Had a great time and worked my butt off … theeeeeen on the way home we stopped to get some milk …aaaand in slipped a chokkie bar … and some chokkie custard!!!!!!!!! Grrr!!!! Having just had my first 10 days without any chokky … I was feeling the power .. now !!!… now!!! All that exercise has gone down the dumpster…. and the dishes need doing and hubbies lunch needs making. I am a pile girl too … I sort things into piles and always mean to get back to them… buuuut… it takes forever!!! O to be one of the inspirational people in life… nope…but… anyone is welcomed to my home with open arms, a big smile and huge heart… that’s what matters! Lotsa love! I sound like a little grot… but my home is usually clean and neat … REALLY!!! 🙂
xxxx
Lol, my house is all clean but I guess this is the first time in about 6 months because I have an Estate Agent coming round tomorrow.
But *whispers* I didn’t have shower today and although I could do one with now I can’t be asked because every single bone in my body hurts….
my “house”….my authenic self….is in shambles…i’ve begun a sojourn towards peace this year…..embracing my dysfunctions and seeking something i’ve lost along the way…….me….
Hehe, yeah, 2010 has definately been smacking me upside the head so far. It’s been a rough first month for sure, on all levels. Thankfully, just tonight, I’ve had a little reminder that I just have to trust . . .
In order to keep 99 balls in the air, we all have to know when to let the 100th ball drop.
Namaste
[…] Thankful for my positive attitude. A post over at Creating Wings had me thinking a lot since I read it. She does have a point, often blogs reflect such an ideal […]
oh meg, my house is a mess. seriously. i am even dreaming about tidying! i worry sometimes because i do believe your home can in some way represent your psyche and the fact that mine is a tip does somehow reflect where i’m at too… in fact i think it does. hmmm, you’ve given me some food for thought here…
in the meantime though, i just want to see you and hug you, and hang out with you. maybe wash your dishes and tend to your heart?
love you
xo
Your post resonates with me today Meg…in my own attempts to make sense of my life and the pace at which I do things – which comparitively seems slow and messy! – I have had some accepting to do. I am who I am, and she’s great, even if her house is a mess and she has a stain on nearly every favorite shirt! And in truth, I have been finding that my true life joy comes at times where I could be writing that book or finishing the dishes. I have to trust that I am exactly where I need to be, even if that’s having a good cry for no apparent reason, after eating far too much chocolate 🙂 You are not alone in this struggle…that much I know for sure:)
i’ve been hiding under a rock, in a cave, under the sea. so i have no idea what my house looks like.
and so it goes, right? there is always the antithesis to the desired, to the light, to the bursts of energy and connectedness.
i, too, believe in YOU. and am so grateful to have found one another. i’m on your team, and wish i could come over and wash those dishes for you (always more fun to do someone else’s dishes).
LOVE.
my house is a little messy, i’m not sure i have any clean clothes, but i am happy, my heart is light, i’m thinking about taking a bubble bath and going to bed very early.
My house isn’t too bad, considering.
My heart is over at my art table, being neglected because I’ve been working on algebraic equations all night. I’ve got plans for it this weekend though. 🙂
I’m baching it tonight so the take-out food is congealing on the counter, dirty plates are still on the coffee table, my wine glass desperately needing to be refilled as I sit here in my jammies with my cat and laptop on my lap, surfing. It ain’t pretty, but it’s me. 🙂
my heart is with you… it is also with my girls back at school for their first day of the year… it is also with my creative work which is burgeoning and exciting but my house is a bloody tip – ditto the garden and i haven’t walked the dog and i have a to do list which is overflowing but i have a heart and it is happy
Haha! Bless your heart for wondering that. I sometimes feel bad blogging things/feeling that are not “good” or “nice”…But I can’t put out the sunshine very well, if that is not what is going on with me. So I don’t post anything, in order not offend or put my more less-than-perfect side out there. Then, I feel I have to write what I really feel, or I will BURST. So I do, then I feel bad…and then I get emails from readers saying, “Oh thank you! I feel that way, too!”
Real is better. I would rather see your dishes, than a pretty picture that isn’t true.
🙂
I stumbled onto your blog the day you posted this and it really made me think, particularly since I’d just started a new blog of my own. Since reading it I’d been meaning to post something on the same topic and just finally got around to it today. I hope you don’t mind that I’ve linked to this post. I’ve also put a link to your blog in my side bar. Thanks for all the inspiration. I’m looking forward to spending lots of time reading here!!!
Well my house is pretty much ok. i find it some kind of necessity (having a clean house) to be able to look at things on the bright side. And this is what I tell my 2 kids, please help me keep this place safe !
Allthough my heart is pretty messy and has been for a little while, I try to keep my home ok and then i feel ok when I get back home at night and this way I feel safe.
I know i do need to feel safe and comfortable there at least ! And I don’t look at other peolple’s house, I don’t care, THEY leave there ! As long as their own heart is welcoming !
love to all of you from sunny (and snowy right now !)south of France 🙂
My clutter is amazing and that’s, mainly, because I choose life over clutter. All “those” women that say clutter is evil -smile- just haven’t made peace yet.
I’ve given away hundreds of books, yet the towers of books left, threaten to topple at any moment. The quilting frame has not one, but two, quilts ready to be hand quilted. The spinning wheel has a bobbin waiting to be filled. I still need to send the last OWOH 2010 gift.
For some reason, I’m locked out of my blog and that’s worrisome but life is still good. We ate home made apple muffins for breakfast, I made a killer pot roast this week and have a bottle of green wine chilling in the fridge.
I’m not Pollyanna but when I’m feeling blue, I start counting my blessings and that helps…sometimes just a bit but, mostly, enough to jump start me. And that’s a great thing.
As to my heart…it’s at peace but only because of Christ. It’s not about religion, it’s about relationship and always I “cast my cares upon Him because He cares for me”.
Most of us are doing the best we can and it always pays to be gentle one with one another. We never know what hell someone is going through. It sounds like you need to lavish some of that TLC, you spend on other people, on yourself. Women always seem to forget to treat themselves tenderly; then, when they start thrashing, crashing and burning, we wonder “why?”
As much as you’re able, treat yourself like an honored guest today. Pamper, adore and love yourself and that will put you in a place to “do unto others as you’d have them do unto you”.
Pax.
Dear sweet Meg You have saved me today. I am in such a place of loneliness and heart hurt. Your entry has taken some of my loneliness away. I love you and your realness. we all need it and i am soooo grateful to you.