“What are the conditions you’d need in your world in order to feel like you were living in paradise?” – Richard Geer
Doesn’t that quote fill you with a bit of a delicious tingle? To me it feels dangerous and big. I’ve been surrounded by delicious and dangerous thoughts lately. They have been streaming out of the world towards me as if they have just all been waiting – lining up – until I began to pay attention.
Something I was reading lately said that everything you need to know is always all around you, but until you are ready for it – until something in you resonates with it – it will remain invisible. I love that. I played with that thought yesterday as I had a big-city adventure. I tried to notice what I noticed. Why did I see certain people and things and not others? More importantly, what wasn’t I seeing? What are my filters keeping from me?
I watched a video this morning by Christine Kane. In it she talks about being in the “Play-Big Zone.” Funnily enough, it was when she talked about “playing medium” that my little soul perked up. I saw that part: it got through my filters. Playing medium means that you feel like you are nearly there, but you don’t let yourself be bigger. You catch glimpses of who you could be, but then you get scared and turn away, falling into bad habits and avoidance tendancies. I heard Christine loud and clear right then and recognized myself in her words. But I don’t want to resonate with medium! So I backed the thing up and watched her video again. I paid better attention, and found that it scared me a lot! No wonder I hadn’t really listened the first time. Part of me wanted to make art out of her words and hang it on my door and begin to play bigger. The other part of me was scared: “But I’d have to take it down if people came over, because what if people saw it?” HA! and: “But I don’t think I can do it, it’s too much pressure.” Double HA!
Maybe I am really not lazy. Maybe I have just been avoiding potential. It’s safer and warmer here in the land of medium. It’s not too hot or too cold,and I don’t have to put my head above the parapet and risk rejection or mockery or worse still: success. I don’t have to forge my own way, I can sit and read about other people’s adventures. It’s nice here, all snug and safe and almost.
But am I finally ready for big? Are you?
Can we all hold hands 🙂
It’s amazing what our minds will do in the interest of staying in our comfort zones!!
I like Jo’s idea of holding hands as we move beyond the almost and into the BIG! 🙂
Big scares me too. Whenever I move in a bigger direction, my inner Troll whispers … “but then you will have to work so hard to keep up …” or “you aren’t really good enough to live bigger …”
I want to be able to shut up the Troll, but he is persistant.
YES!! I am ready! thank you for another great post…i feel exactly that way…especially the “too much pressure” part. that rang so true.
I love this SO much! Wow – do I ever catch myself playing medium. I say all the time that I’m learning to shine, but I still keep being medium. There’s just something about “medium shine” that seems mostly just DULL and I sure am ready to change that!!!
Ummm…yes? I want to be ready for big.LOL
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Snug and safe and almost…oh how I need you these days to wake me up. I’ve been living in that almost zone for way way too long. I don’t want to be almost anymore. I need to figure out what the next step is, and do something about it. Funny how one little word can stir such an inner reaction.