“…I allow myself to be uncorked, unabashed, and showered with delicious good in every facet of my life. I don’t need to fit in anymore, in the world of struggling, suffering, complaining, and belittling. I am going nova and that’s okay.” – Tama J. Kieves on CrazySexyLife.com
I did it again. I was going to write another post about woo woo, and in waiting for just the right moment to write it, I didn’t write it at all. There is another post about it coming, but it’s not ready yet, so I wanted to check in.
Things in my head are quite strange, so I apologize if this is all over the place. I just finished watching the movie Amelia. It was gentle and lovely, and even though I knew how it ended, I willed her to make it just the same. Sometimes I wonder if people were put on this earth just to show the rest of us how it is done. We remember her for how her story ended, but the important part is that she lived.
A friend did a Reiki healing on me earlier this year. When she got to my head she remarked that my energy felt like she was being given a deep fresh breath. I’ve been thinking a lot about that in the months since. I feel like there is a force, an energy within me that I haven’t quite accessed yet. Lately I have realized that it is not from lack of trying but perhaps it is because I have been trying too hard. What is important is not how my story ends, but the way that I have lived. This isn’t new, or rocket science, but it is surprisingly hard to hold on to.
Just a few minutes ago I read the quote above and thought about the concept of going nova. Nova: “a star that ejects some of its material in the form of a cloud and becomes more luminous in the process.”
Yes. All I can say is yes.
When I was at the British Museum in London a few months ago I took this picture because I knew what the totem pole must feel like: very far away from Canada. Most of the time I am completely comfortable here, in love with England’s people and history, and able to get by without too much fuss. Other times I feel desperate for home.