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Meeting My Scorpio Side

November 2, 2013

“The Solar Eclipse in Scorpio tends to ‘energize fresh new slate.’  It is a time to act in confident ways in alignment with one’s Soul. There may be a deep feeling of renewal and recharge happening too.”Dipali Desai

breathe meghan genge

A few months ago I heard Seane Corn being interviewed. I can’t remember who the interviewer was or even where I heard it, but I remember her talking about not feeling her emotions, but instead intellectualising them (apologies to Seane Corn if my memory has changed this or I am making this up!) This whole conversation stunned me, because I realized then and there that that is exactly what I do.

I am a writer. A word lover. I can tell you for hours how I am feeling – but that doesn’t mean that I am actually feeling anything. I realise now that the moment I start to feel something, I can hear the blog post or the journal entry in my head begin. I think about how I’m supposed to be feeling and what that emotion means – but I don’t actually get into my body and FEEL it.

And I have come to believe that it is all still there – stuck in stasis in my body – until I am ready and willing to let it out.

Today I followed a link to Celestial Space and discovered that as a Scorpio, emotion is part and parcel of who I am. I want to be me at my best, and apparently to be at my best I need to be feeling and expressing my emotions.

The astrological sign of Scorpio is an water sign, fixed mode of expression. Since Scorpio is a water element, experiencing ‘in-depth emotional awareness and expression’ can help one reconnect with the exquisite new feelings and emotions. This is a great time to pamper the emotional level, by engaging in activities which puts one in touch with healing, therapeutic counseling, energy balancing sessions and so forth. – Dipali Desai

I don’t know what my next steps are, but I know that I need to let go, loosen up the stuck bits and start digging.

Note: Inspired by Elizabeth and Karen, I have signed up for NaBloPoMo. (Karen’s doing the photographic one) So I’m going to attempt to blog every day this month. I know I missed yesterday – but I like that in some way I have already not done it…

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The Necessity of a Great Villain

December 9, 2012

“After all, what would the world be like without Captain Hook?” – Captain Hook (Dustin Hoffman)

 

I have a nemesis.  I have chosen her carefully.  Allow me to explain:

Today ended up being a very quiet day.  We started with a late breakfast and ended up – as I hope other people occasionally do – watching ridiculous Sunday television.  The Three Musketeers was on: the one with Charlie Sheen sporting a mullet and Keifer Sutherland before he was Jack Bauer. Best of all was Tim Curry’s performance as Cardinal Richelieu.  Mark and I often judge a movie’s appeal on the quotableness of its lines – and Tim Curry, with his, “All for one and more for me,” provides ridiculous entertainment.

It did get us talking about the best movie villains.  Alan Rickman in the atrocious Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves, Glenn Close as Cruella in 101 Dalmations, or even Thomas F. Wilson as Biff Tannen in the Back to the Future movies.  Fabulous villains in the proper sense of the word, not just bad or evil or scary but properly fun, very quotable and always dastardly and compelling.  In Ocean’s Eleven, Basher says, “It will be nice working with proper villains again,” and we secretly agree.

Does every story need a good villain?  Does every hero or heroine need a nemesis?  Is Sarah Ban Breathnach right when she says that it is “simply not an adventure worth telling if there aren’t any dragons?” Are the hard and scary parts of our lives as vital to our story as the sunny ones?

I myself have a nemesis.  It may seem crazy to think of her in this way, but when I do our interactions cease to stress me out. Instead of letting her get to me as she used to, I now look at her with amusement and a certain level of comic detachment.  In my head I am looking at her with narrowed eyes, tossing my hair back and getting ready to do battle.  I imagine her with her red cape flapping behind her as we circle each other with purpose.  She is as silly to me as the best of the fabulous villains. By letting the energy out of our interactions I get to live that moment when Sarah says, “You have no power over me,” to an inappropriately crotch-stuffed David Bowie in Labyrinth. Doing this sounds silly, but it means that I get to decide who the heroes and the villains are in my life.

So just for a moment, try seeing the world around you as characters in your own movie.  Try seeing the people who drive you crazy as ridiculous partners to your hero or heroine self.  Who is the Vader to your Luke or the Hook to your Pan?  Then delight in knowing that they have no power over you.

And know that the heroine of this particular story is going to win.

xo

 

P.S.  My voice is (mostly) healed! There’ll be a new story this week. I’m just recording it now! xo

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The Stories We Tell

October 15, 2012
Stanton Drew

“We live in story like a fish lives in water. We swin through words and images siphoning story through our minds the way a fish siphons water through its gills.  We cannot think without language, we cannot process experience without story.” – Christina Baldwin

Christina Baldwin’s quote leaves me breathless:  “We cannot think without language, we cannot process experience without story.”  That quote and Martha’s Beck statement that, “the past only exists as a story in your mind,” both found me around the same time.  I was searching for answers and instead found something that I had always known.

Everything we do, everything we think and everything we are is a result of the stories that we tell ourselves.

The first stone circle I ever visited was the Ring o’ Brodgar on Orkney.  When I walked through the ring of stones the hairs on my arms stood up.  It felt strange and energetic and powerful.  I didn’t know what was happening to me, but I knew it was something special.  No one could tell me for sure about those stones, no matter how much I asked.

When I was in university I wrote a paper for my honours history course on the Druids, with some focus on Stonehenge.  I only got 71% on that paper. Why? Because I had no primary sources.  Primary sources are a difficult thing to find when the people you are writing about did not write anything down.

What do those two things have in common?

Stone circles have caused modern humans a lot of angst.  We are desperate to understand them. We have dug at their foundations and done geophysical surveys and study after study on these rings.  None of our science has ever found a definitive answer about standing stones – and it drives us crazy.

We need the story to make sense of the thing.  Our minds hate not knowing, so we fill the space with possible stories.  My favourite creation tale for Stonehenge is that Merlin had something to do with it.  I mean, why not?

This is the same way our brains deal with the unknown in our lives.  We make up stories to explain every single thing that happens to us.  Our own personal mythology exists so that we can make sense of our world.  But how many of these stories are based in reality and how many are as real as the story of a wizard enchanting stones to walk?

A few weeks ago I sat in the shadow of a stone circle and committed to what I know is true for me: the story is the thing.

I committed to digging deep and understanding the nature of the stories we tell ourselves.

I committed to helping to heal those ancient spaces inside – the ones we have been filling with fear.

I committed to not knowing, and instead to deep listening.

I committed to remembering who I am below and beyond story.

I committed to learning how to re-craft my own myths and to re-write my own stories.

I committed to sharing what I find with you.

I hope you’ll come along.

Your own stones are waiting.

xo