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Meeting My Scorpio Side

November 2, 2013

“The Solar Eclipse in Scorpio tends to ‘energize fresh new slate.’  It is a time to act in confident ways in alignment with one’s Soul. There may be a deep feeling of renewal and recharge happening too.” – Dipali Desai

breathe meghan genge

A few months ago I heard Seane Corn being interviewed. I can’t remember who the interviewer was or even where I heard it, but I remember her talking about not feeling her emotions, but instead intellectualising them (apologies to Seane Corn if my memory has changed this or I am making this up!) This whole conversation stunned me, because I realized then and there that that is exactly what I do.

I am a writer. A word lover. I can tell you for hours how I am feeling – but that doesn’t mean that I am actually feeling anything. I realise now that the moment I start to feel something, I can hear the blog post or the journal entry in my head begin. I think about how I’m supposed to be feeling and what that emotion means – but I don’t actually get into my body and FEEL it.

And I have come to believe that it is all still there – stuck in stasis in my body – until I am ready and willing to let it out.

Today I followed a link to Celestial Space and discovered that as a Scorpio, emotion is part and parcel of who I am. I want to be me at my best, and apparently to be at my best I need to be feeling and expressing my emotions.

The astrological sign of Scorpio is an water sign, fixed mode of expression. Since Scorpio is a water element, experiencing ‘in-depth emotional awareness and expression’ can help one reconnect with the exquisite new feelings and emotions. This is a great time to pamper the emotional level, by engaging in activities which puts one in touch with healing, therapeutic counseling, energy balancing sessions and so forth. – Dipali Desai

I don’t know what my next steps are, but I know that I need to let go, loosen up the stuck bits and start digging.

Note: Inspired by Elizabeth and Karen, I have signed up for NaBloPoMo. (Karen’s doing the photographic one) So I’m going to attempt to blog every day this month. I know I missed yesterday – but I like that in some way I have already not done it…

inspiring women, nourishment, Redfox Retreats

Magic and Miracles

October 7, 2013

“Magic and miracles happen everywhere I go.” – Me

fire meghan genge

After never having much success with affirmations, a few months ago I started an experiment. Instead of reciting affirmations that my lizard brain could disagree with, I started noticing magic and miracles. If for any reason I noticed beauty or love or nature or whimsy or if I was delighted in any way, I would say, “Magic and miracles happen everywhere I go!”

And of course, as I had already seen proof, my brain would have to believe it.

After a few months, I slowly changed my tactic. Every now and then I would slip in a little, “Magic and miracles happen everywhere I go,” when I hadn’t actually seen anything. Then my brain would have to actively look for proof that it was true, because if previous experience was anything to go by, it must be true.

And now?

Magic and miracles happen absolutely everywhere I go!

You want proof?

How about getting to spend 5 days with two of my best friends and an amazing circle of women? Try being witness to bravery and honesty and openness and deep soul sharing. How about releasing and manifesting and cackling and dancing under the stars? How about unlimited – and I do mean unlimited – cake?

And if that wasn’t enough, proof looks like crayons and markers and candles and crystals and journals and love – SO. MUCH. LOVE. – all overseen by a green velvet buddha and a tiny plastic fox.

Proof is in the divine guidance that told us to open the door and hold the space – because that is all we did –

and then magic and miracles happened.

Magic and miracles happen everywhere I go.

What would happen if you believed it too?

 

buddha meghan genge

 

Becoming Visible, spirituality, The Seeker

Becoming Visible

September 30, 2013

“Concentrate on what you want to say to yourself and your friends. Follow your inner moonlight; don’t hide the madness. You say what you want to say when you don’t care who’s listening.” – Allen Ginsberg

Door with lock Meghan Genge

You might not know it to look at me, but I have a real problem with visibility. I’m okay at work – I’ve always been good with a script – but when it comes to the spiritual side of me, I prefer to hide.

Ask me what I do beyond the day job and historically I have stammered something about writing.

In the past, whenever the blog stats started to go up, my posting stopped.

It was never a conscious hiding, but hide I did. Like a small creature curled up in its hole, nose tucked under my tail for security.

Although it is a monstrous cliche, I think that there is a trace of the witch around all of this.  Don’t show yourself to be anything but good and ordinary or you risk being cast out of the tribe – or worse.  But there is also a soft part of me that feels that all of this is rather tender. I don’t want to have to explain or defend myself.

Who knows.

The only one who has suffered is me.

But soon I won’t be able to hide! I am coming out of the woo woo closet and self-publishing my book!  It should be ready sometime in November.

For the next week, I will be in the wilds of the Somerset countryside retreating with Sas and Susannah, but after that, Project: Visibility will begin!  If you are interested in knowing more about my book, please have a look and a listen to chapter one here.  If you are interested in knowing when the book comes out – please sign up to my mailing list.

I’ll SEE you next week!

with love, Meghan xoox

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