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I Will Not Admit Defeat

November 3, 2013

“Metamorphosis isn’t always pretty, but it is always awesome and absolutely essential.” – Oprah Winfrey

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So, every single time I am on track, something happens. Every time I get close, I get sick or hurt myself or something gets in the way. I get de-railed and it takes me ages to get back to it. This week I did yoga or went for an hour walk every day. I also decided to post a blog post every day this month. I went to bed last night feeling positive and motivated.

This morning?

Filthy head cold. I’ve sneezed 12 times while writing this post.

But I am not admitting defeat.

Not this time.

Roar.

 

 

archetypes, emotions

Meeting My Scorpio Side

November 2, 2013

“The Solar Eclipse in Scorpio tends to ‘energize fresh new slate.’  It is a time to act in confident ways in alignment with one’s Soul. There may be a deep feeling of renewal and recharge happening too.”Dipali Desai

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A few months ago I heard Seane Corn being interviewed. I can’t remember who the interviewer was or even where I heard it, but I remember her talking about not feeling her emotions, but instead intellectualising them (apologies to Seane Corn if my memory has changed this or I am making this up!) This whole conversation stunned me, because I realized then and there that that is exactly what I do.

I am a writer. A word lover. I can tell you for hours how I am feeling – but that doesn’t mean that I am actually feeling anything. I realise now that the moment I start to feel something, I can hear the blog post or the journal entry in my head begin. I think about how I’m supposed to be feeling and what that emotion means – but I don’t actually get into my body and FEEL it.

And I have come to believe that it is all still there – stuck in stasis in my body – until I am ready and willing to let it out.

Today I followed a link to Celestial Space and discovered that as a Scorpio, emotion is part and parcel of who I am. I want to be me at my best, and apparently to be at my best I need to be feeling and expressing my emotions.

The astrological sign of Scorpio is an water sign, fixed mode of expression. Since Scorpio is a water element, experiencing ‘in-depth emotional awareness and expression’ can help one reconnect with the exquisite new feelings and emotions. This is a great time to pamper the emotional level, by engaging in activities which puts one in touch with healing, therapeutic counseling, energy balancing sessions and so forth. – Dipali Desai

I don’t know what my next steps are, but I know that I need to let go, loosen up the stuck bits and start digging.

Note: Inspired by Elizabeth and Karen, I have signed up for NaBloPoMo. (Karen’s doing the photographic one) So I’m going to attempt to blog every day this month. I know I missed yesterday – but I like that in some way I have already not done it…