NaBloPoMo

“The Solar Eclipse in Scorpio tends to ‘energize fresh new slate.’  It is a time to act in confident ways in alignment with one’s Soul. There may be a deep feeling of renewal and recharge happening too.” – Dipali Desai

A few months ago I heard Seane Corn being interviewed. I can’t remember who the interviewer was or even where I heard it, but I remember her talking about not feeling her emotions, but instead intellectualising them (apologies to Seane Corn if my memory has changed this or I am making this up!) This whole conversation stunned me, because I realized then and there that that is exactly what I do.

I am a writer. A word lover. I can tell you for hours how I am feeling – but that doesn’t mean that I am actually feeling anything. I realise now that the moment I start to feel something, I can hear the blog post or the journal entry in my head begin. I think about how I’m supposed to be feeling and what that emotion means – but I don’t actually get into my body and FEEL it.

And I have come to believe that it is all still there – stuck in stasis in my body – until I am ready and willing to let it out.

Today I followed a link to Celestial Space and discovered that as a Scorpio, emotion is part and parcel of who I am. I want to be me at my best, and apparently to be at my best I need to be feeling and expressing my emotions.

The astrological sign of Scorpio is an water sign, fixed mode of expression. Since Scorpio is a water element, experiencing ‘in-depth emotional awareness and expression’ can help one reconnect with the exquisite new feelings and emotions. This is a great time to pamper the emotional level, by engaging in activities which puts one in touch with healing, therapeutic counseling, energy balancing sessions and so forth. – Dipali Desai

I don’t know what my next steps are, but I know that I need to let go, loosen up the stuck bits and start digging.

Note: Inspired by Elizabeth and Karen, I have signed up for NaBloPoMo. (Karen’s doing the photographic one) So I’m going to attempt to blog every day this month. I know I missed yesterday – but I like that in some way I have already not done it…