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Let It Go

January 5, 2015

This is not a light and casual Full Moon! It it kicking off 2015 in a big way- with focus on what needs to shift, change, transform, end and/or be released in our lives. – Divine Harmony via Mystic Mama

clothes meghan genge 9 weeks tomorrow. This was the first thought I had when I woke this morning at 4.53am. We leave 9 weeks tomorrow. How am I going to get it all done?

Having just looked at my lunar app (of course), I have discovered that 4.53am was the exact moment the moon became full. And apparently this full moon means business.

Post-Christmas has been clear-o-rama-fest here. Every charity box from here to London is full of our old clothes (why did I keep them?!) and Ebay is humming under the weight of us selling other people our crap.

Over Christmas we – and probably just about every other household in the western world – watched Disney’s Frozen. In the few days afterwards, Mark and I would jokingly break into the chorus of ‘Let it Go,’ flinging our arms wide and taking in the piles we were accumulating. In the past few days it has become slightly less joyful and a little more stressful.

Let it go.

Why do we keep this stuff? Why does it take a major move to make us get rid of it? In the months since the first wrenching cleanse, have I missed a single thing we tossed?

Can I even remember what those things were?

Reading about tonight’s full moon, in the quiet hours before the stuff cleanse begins again, I am struck by how much I want to let go. I would not be sad if someone else came and just took all of this away, but I know that this shedding is an important part of the process for us. I would be overjoyed if I had woken up this morning and had suddenly become the best version of myself, but I know that energetic shedding is a part of the process too.

It’s all the same. It’s all stuff.

We are lucky. We get to decide what we are taking to Costa Rica, but we are under no illusions that WE will be any different unless we also consciously choose to let go of more than just our stuff. So we are going there too. It hasn’t been pretty, and it hasn’t been fun. But we are going there. The small, frightened, limited, hard-on-ourselves us aren’t invited along on this move. They are being released like a pair of worn-out pajamas. And apparently this moon is in full support. (I do love a good support team.)

Let it go.

Because that is when the magic happens.

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All in the Waiting

December 24, 2014

I said to my soul, be still and wait without hope, for hope would be hope for the wrong thing; wait without love, for love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith, but the faith and the love are all in the waiting. Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought: so the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing – T.S. Eliot

Christmas Eve.

One Christmas Eve, many years ago, I sat in church listening to my Dad talk about waiting. About anticipation. I remember him quoting a passage from the bible that talked about how – when all of the things were happening around her – Mary pondered them in her heart.

I’ve never forgotten that image.

Waiting.

When I wished my husband good morning this morning we talked about how we both always really loved Christmas Eve, because it was all still to come. When you were a kid on Christmas Eve, Christmas was still a big magical unknown. Everything twinkled Christmas Eve. The magic was in counting down the hours.

We are very much in a waiting, preparing, unknown phase of our journey. We are just past eleven weeks until we leave. Part of my fatigue and stress right now is that when people ask us what we are going to be doing, I have nothing normal to tell them. Rather than have another conversation that involves me justifying our leap, or helping them be less afraid, I have taken to outright lying or embellishing the truth. For me, that is a sure route to chest pains.

The truth is: we don’t know what we are doing. We have ideas and hopes and a place to stay for seven months, but other than that we are going on… what? Faith? That is a surprisingly difficult thing for people to hear.

Faith.

We are going to go and see. We are going to see if we really want to be there before we commit, and then we are going to be open to the opportunities that present themselves. We’re deliberately not making firm plans, because we both believe that what we can dream is too small for ourselves.

And so tonight as I join people all over the world in Christmas Eve anticipation, I will also be lighting a candle and remembering Mary, who waited in much more discomfort than everyone else and pondered it all in her heart.

And starting tomorrow, I will begin a practice of lighting a candle as I count my blessings every night. Because every night holds the magic of the next day. Because every day is a leap of faith. Because we can’t dream big enough for ourselves.

Because it is all still to come.

With much love,

Meghan

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The Holy Yes

November 26, 2014

Our task is to say a holy yes to the real things of our life as they exist – the real truth of who we are… – Natalie Goldberg

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As babies, we exist in a state of Holy Yes.

When we are nourished, dry, warm and held, we exist in a space that is very simply a state of yes. We don’t know about no yet. We don’t know about what if yet. We don’t know about maybe.

As we grow up, we begin to learn about no. No is healthy. No establishes our boundaries, gives us space between us and them, and helps us learn about what we like and want; how we want to feel versus how other people want us to feel.

But no isn’t always so benevolent. No also brings with it manipulation and maybe and only if. No brings questions and boundary crossing. Our no isn’t always okay if someone else’s yes is more important. So we learn to quiet or ingest or ignore or even mistrust our no. And – since nature loves to balance things out – we also in turn learn to quiet or ingest or ignore or mistrust our yes.

Our yes, then, becomes tangled with compromise. We slowly begin to forget what our really real yes feels like. Yes becomes good enough. Yes becomes I don’t know, what do you want? Yes turns into that will do.

And we forget our true yes. Our Holy Yes.

What I have discovered (with practice) is that with practice, you can get back to your yes.

And once you are better at yes, you can find your Hell, Yes.

And once you are good at Hell Yes, you can get back to your Holy Yes.

And then things get really interesting.

When Jamie Ridler and I talked about the practice I used to get to my yes on my move to Costa Rica, I was still operating on the Hell, Yes principle. But since talking to Jamie, I’ve been thinking about why we were willing to take such a big leap of faith, and I realized, it wasn’t a Hell Yes we heard – it was that we listened to our Holy Yes.

Hell Yes is get out of my way, I’m coming through! Hell Yes is watch me fly. Hell Yes has Pink as the soundtrack and is kicking ass and taking names. Hell Yes is I’m going to take that course, write that book, dance to that tune. Hell Yes is the life force that gets us moving towards the life of our dreams.

But Holy Yes is the knowing that makes you take a deep breath whenever you think about your dream. Holy Yes is knowing without a shadow of a doubt that this decision is the right one. Holy Yes knows all of the reasons why this is crazy, but it knows like it knows like it knows that it is actually the only sane choice. Holy Yes immediately connects you with the angels, the helpers, the guides and the magic. Holy Yes is the only choice you can make.

And you can make it.

All it takes is a bit of practice.

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Let It Go

This is not a light and casual Full Moon! It it kicking off 2015 in a big way- with focus on what needs to shift, change, transform, end and/or be released in our lives. – Divine Harmony via Mystic Mama

All in the Waiting

The Holy Yes

Our task is to say a holy yes to the real things of our life as they exist – the real truth of who we are… – Natalie Goldberg

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