“Creativity, and the meaning we bring to the celebration of life, is the way in which women naturally walk in radiance.” – Pixie Campbell
I have lost count of the number of times I have sat down to write a blog post. There are a dozen posts sitting in limbo – some half finished, some finished – waiting for me to have the heart to hit publish.
Nothing has felt right.
I have felt lost and uninspired; bored of myself and my declarations.
I’ve been to London with my tribe to see the sparkling Martha Beck. I’ve been to Italy and filled up my beauty bank. I’ve been to London to visit the Queen. I have a lot to tell you.
But it wasn’t enough to kick my butt back here – until today.
This morning I read these words of Pixie’s and they found the dark, hiding part of me that needed to hear them:
“Creativity, and the meaning we bring to the celebration of life, is the way in which women naturally walk in radiance.”- Pixie Campbell*
In my rush and my work and my stress and my anxiety and my need to write things that please you and my grown-up-stuckness, I have let slide the two things that are the most essential to who-I-am: creativity and celebration. All this time I was looking for a way to shine a light, but first I had to remember where mine truly was.
I am a writer. I am a seeker. I can find magic anywhere. I want to tell you stories and tell your stories. I love to celebrate everything in every way. I can see to the heart and the possibilities in anything. I am still afraid of my own bigness. I want to consciously decide how to live each day. I have a profound belief in the sacredness of all things. I want to shine a light.
That’s who I am and what my blog is going to be about.
I remember now.
xo
*This quote is used by permission and is from the Solstice Soulodge. Summer session starts on July 2nd!
It’s a week for declarations and shining our light! Love you xx
It is amazing to me how getting clear on who we are and what we are going to blog about makes it easier to write, and be more reflective of who we are.
I’ve struggled back recently, too. In the end, to be good for the creator, all creative endeavors have to be for love and from the knowledge of who we are, not approval seeking or hole filling. Let it come, dear girl, let it come.
Welcome back! Its good to hear your words again. I think sometimes the ebb and flow of creativity is not something we should be afraid of. Perhaps when it doesn’t seem to be there its allowing other things to be present. I have felt deflated and unmotivated when its comes to doing my blog, and also thinking about my own path. Its coming back slowly, dripping in. Breathing helps! Focus on the breath. Good luck with the writing and look forward to your stories. Much love xx